Waitng really kills my spirit.

 

      

  

     The  word which I really hate in my life is ' waiting'. many times and at many situations, I have waited for others regardless of hours, by neglecting my duty and family.All those years only siblings and their family members seemed part of my life for many years. I waited  long hours for bus, train, or to be fetched by family members. And the worst part is when travel to India and when travel by train to other states. at times two days and 3 days just wasted waiting for the train which will take us to certain destination, so at odd hours , with out left for choice, we decided to put up at the railway station dorm, which is considered very safe.

    While waiting for the train which will arrive, the following day, myself and my daughter decided to go for sight seeing, un believably, there were bookshops , and vendors almost at every corner of  certain towns. Whether a coffee shop available or not, newspapers and magazine stalls and corners were seen almost at every corner of certain towns in a state.

     Waiting for no reason is simply annoys and irritates me. I used to be one of the early ones to reach my hometown for family gatherings, informed by my siblings that on certain days at certaintimes,therebetween,Manyschool programmes on Saturdays and and on Friday evenings I missed, because my siblings were so strong and stubborn with their decisions that's on particular day , me and my family members should be there in my town.i was shocked when I reached on the mentioned day and time, because i was the only one arrived, and most of them reached late night.

  

        The worst part is few of the family members were working on that particular day but I have taken leave and reached much earlier than others. This has been going on for several years and I felt that I have been fooled and, I just obliged their order. My home was neglected and not tidied, the house was always left behind, and I was always visiting my siblings on and off. After almost 20 years, I realized that I really need to take care of my home and no body else will be helping me. Now my priority is my family and home. only very important family functions I attend. Not because I don't want, but I don't have the time for anything else, back home from work alone is really tiring and I wait for weekend to clean my house and to do the touch up.