This is written specially for you Thiru

   Dear Thiru, its been almost 34 years since You left forever. Many of my siblings being a reason why I cant remove or delete your memories from my heart. 

         I like you so much. The first time you spoke to me was, when you told me about my form 5 result in Ipoh, at Lahat road Quarters. First I knew that you like me very much. your smile and the stories your beautiful eyes were telling me something , That awaken my heart. No one has shared such beautiful and warm smile to me. 

       Even when im alone i cherish the moments you were visiting our house during break . I dunno how it feels to be in love, but experience it every moment you visited me and smiled at me. Once we all went to watch Cinema on 3 bikes. I was with you on your bike . It was a plan by the older ones, to create a close moment for both of us. But we both maintain our good n modest nature. My marriage was not something planned, since beginning I have been opposing n disagree with family members decision, but they hv been stubborn. cries, and tears were not bothered by any one of them. 

   ....The true story is my younger sister was proposed by the boys family, but my sister insisted that the older sister should get married first. the boys side disagree and wants only my youngest sister. But only the boy wants some one older than his younger sister. I tried my very best to disagree with my older siblings. My older siblings suggested my name to the boys family. I was not given a choice to Voice out or to share my view.

              I told my family that im not ready for any commitments. I realized that you were going thru missery, n not willing to say anything. I was vv shocked to see you in that situation, when my brother brought me to the house you were having your meals with your friends. I was only proposed and its not my Choice. why didnt you tell me or open your mouth about your feelings. 

        So far only your eyes n facial expressions were talking to me n Im able to read those body language.but, after 34 years only these few days I hv been thinking about you. your mouth was tightly tied, without uttering, what you are suppose to share... Why? Why? What ever it is. you know how I feel n I know abt you. Stay safe n be safe there, you memories will live in my heart forever. when I was visiting my house, all alone many many times I felt your presence . your breathing was exactly near my face. I felt the chilled breeze of your breath on my face. Your breathing felt on my face at eve ..at late hours after mid night.Though all the windows were shut, I was surprised, with the no where chilled breathing...Its you... stay safe n be happy always...till we meet one day..dunno when....